this time she won't understand

we're all ruled by secrecy, aren't we? it's what makes us keep going, the fact that there's always something outside our minds that is unknown. i love the feeling that i can simply think about all that is unknown to me in the world and just...imagine...stretch my brain...think of what answers are left to find.

and i guess that's it. what would i have done if things had turned out differently? would have i thought differently about certain things? would i have gone to ISU and played trumpet? would I have stayed home longer? would I have gotten sick and died? naah, nobody knows, but it's always fun to wonder.

love to you all, <3 Joy

this is not a bruise from falling for you

。+.(♥´∀｀♥)゜+ (´◕ฺω◕ฺ｀)ﾜﾗ

I'm in Arkansas right now, sorry that I haven't posted lately...<<;; I've been busy with going here and there and doing stuff. I want to see Ricki tomorrow to give her her birthday presents!! DX its taking so long...


love to you all, God bless! ;3 Joujou

hey, good lookin'....

and this is what i have cookin! GYOZAAAA!!!

not really my picture, but I don't have a camera, and Mrs. Yong wanted pictures...so here it is. ;P

well, today I'm cooking dinner! YUS! and also I got my permit for driving (for the second time, but it took, like, 10 minutes)

I passed the written test and I only missed one (the bus question...i chose to kill all the children...horrible, i know) so if all goes well, i'll have my license soon!! *.*

and nick will be here in a few days, so that will be fun~! I need all my friends to come up to j-town and hang out.

i also got in touch with Hot topic, and i have a really really good feeling about the beginning of july! good luck with everything, everyone. this summer is for work! <3and this is me, a la webcam. <3

the amatuer monster

aaah soo, here we are.

I had cereal this morning...again attempting to wake up at 8...hitting snooze seventeen times....and waking up with a shudder exactly at noon...bah. stupid.

anyway, I've been thinking lately...surprising, huh?
Well, not of anything pressing or important, just that I want to play the new Pokemon game....


yea.


i'm a nerd.


anyway, well, there's the Diamond version and the Pearl version. I don't know which one i'd get, but its for the DS and it even enables wifi voice chat!! which is amazing for the DS, I thought the mic was only good for harassing puppies on Nintendogs! XD
So its either that, or buy the newest Final Fantasy game...which i heard sucked plot-wise, but I'm a real sucker for impressive graphics...

woo...shiney....curaga...

aaah i have to sneeze, i'll (DONE) talk to you soon.

aah, excuse me. <3 Joy

words that we couldn't say

It's fun being home alone most of the time. I can sleep in, I can eat what I want and when. (And if I don't feel like eating, I don't have to.) I can play music at my own leisure without anyone listening 'over my shoulder' so to speak. I can clean at my own pace.

But on a day like today...its very depressing. I know, a million times, I know I need a job. I WANT a job, for pete's sake. That's one of the biggest reasons to move to Joliet in the first place.

So here I am. This is what I'm doing now. Nothing. And you know what? I'm not ashamed or anything of sitting at home and relaxing my life away. I will get a job, there's no doubt about that, but I'm not at said job today.

Anyway...onto a new topic. The weather is good. That is the most stupid, menial thing I've ever typed in here. Taha.

The CONGA drums! la la la (shuffles in seat to music)

I painted my nails for the first time since I left Ozarks. they look really cool, they're orange with a 'tropical' coloured glitter. makes me happy to look at them.

Africa.
Mexico.
Sicily.
Tijuana.
...Let's kick the beat.
(insert alto sax solo here and trumpet alternating improv'd duet here)

aaaah i'm going to clean and pack up my stuff today. <3 Joy