my own mattress!! yay!

I'm at dad's right now...boy am I happy.

oi i saw aubrey, and she's getting SO big! She's walking and forming words "just like she's a littler person!" XD her grandpa is funny...

anyway, i'm a little bit upset considering i'm waiting up here to talk and blablablablablablablabla...

shake moment.

see ya around, babes. <3 Joy

~Hi Ya Ya Ya~

DBSK.....(laughs)

there's nothing like K-pop to put me in a peppy mood. I know when mom gets home the mood will be completely different, but right now I feel great!! yesterday, playing 'laggy-mcgee' and watching blackbeard with jess was awesome good fun...life is good.

I'm still waiting for HT to call me...(crosses fingers) I really really want this, but if its not in the cards, I plan on applying at Guitar Center and playing their lovely electric pianos, guitars, and bongos all day...AAALLLL DAAAAAY!!
...yes I know there will be work involved...teehee...you understand what I mean.

I miss my friends, and not just my Ozarks friends. I've been back home for...iunno, more than a week, and I haven't seen a lot of them because I've been in the house without means of transportation. It will work out.

I have to see Jessica and her baby soon, too...dang.

the more i think about it, there's SOOOO much left to do. I can't even remember half of it. I'm really not even trying to remember it right now. I'm just in good mood! I woke up before 3pm (at noon) and had a horrible cup of coffee, and I'm feeling great! It sounds really stupid, but my newest goal is to start waking up earlier so I don't sleep my life away...such a problem, right?

...heh.
so anyway, I'm getting back into Miyavi and Dir en grey. For a while I haven't been listening to them, but I'm starting to get back into them....like i said....broken record syndrome.

aaaah I'm going to do the dishes or something, ciao angiolettos!~~ <3 Joy

A, B, AB, O, or C6H12O6?

C6H12O6

Let's hope I'm still good at biology...teehee. hopefully this works, I miss my skills.

Anyway, still waiting for the people at my *hopefully* new job call me! I'm so excited to start working!

It's lovely to sit around and not do anything, but I'm broke as a young, fabulous bum.

I'm going to do some art modeling soon, so that won't bring in any money, but at least it will get me up and dressed. (Thank God)

So anyway, I'll get back to this soon. I've kind of fallen behind.

LIST OF THINGS TO DO:
1.)finish and mail off my thank you letters
2.)pack my things
3.)check and re-check my packed things
4.)finish some song writing!!!

I've started, like, 4 songs, and i still have to finish them! I can do it!

>o<

love you, <3 Joy

look me straight in my eyes.

"Now..
now it hurts in the worst way
now that you're gone.
it's so wrong.."

~~
you guys, I've been keeping this blog through lots of things that have happened to me. I read my old journals (the paper ones) today again, thinking "I've been through seemingly nothing compared to this year."
It's true, I'm the kind of person that doesn't feel sympathy/empathy easily because i have the golden statement to fall back upon, "It isn't happening to me, it has nothing to do with me, so there's no reason for me to be sad or angry."

But I am angry.

(long-winded paragraph omitted)

you never know what you have until its gone. I learned this very well after Daniel left...and now it's a lesson that stays with me. I'm learning to be grateful for everything and everyone in my life. Yea, it sounds cheesy and very 'time life' but its the truth.

So i thank you for all the hard times you've put me through. Thank you. God bless you. I'm going to start my life now.

~~~
"Here's to the friends that were alibis."

Final post before summer

This is the last post I'll be making from U of O.

Final Post. Wowee wow.

Insert climactic musical overtones here.

Aaaaaand I'm done.

We could lose, we could fail.

So summer is coming rapidly. Because of all the work I have to do, it's hard for me to find time to think about "Who's address do I need? Who do I need to talk to still about staying in contact?" It's difficult, I don't want to leave anyone behind and forget.

That reminds me, I have to wash my choir dress....ewwww, still haven't done that!!

Well, anyway, tonight is the student showcase concert and Welcome to Friday will be making an acoustic appearance. Wish us luck, its just two of us with guitars.

I'm going to miss everyone, but I am going to see my friends back home! and I'm going back home with my family! I miss them a lot too!

Gosh, it's complicated.