SAND BOOM

Hey everyone! I just got a job! XD I'm so proud of myself. I've been hunting for roughly a month, doing everything possible, and FINALLY I'm going to be getting a paycheck! I'm so happy.

Also, got a call from Grandma this morning. I had to reschedule the doctors visit because there's NO WAY i'm missing work the first week, or the next week...or at all if possible.

Taking out my piercings, making my hair a normal colour, applying myself, I really feel like my life is going a little better. I still have to go to the doctor like i promised, but you know...scheduling. eek.

right now I'm at the school, practicing piano and reading a lot. listening to music between buildings. its like old times, only NO CLASS! haha. I even woke up really early this morning for no reason. I'm getting excited for work, i think. I want to sleep better...I've been having problems doing that lately, but i'm pretty sure its just jitters and stress.

well, there's not much else that is new. I'm going to be doing more drawing. I have been recently, i really feel the muse to.

also, going to look at my torso in the art building last semester i let an art student plaster me for a project, and its almost done!! the completed work will be up in december of next year. I'm really excited, because its almost like modeling. :)

LOVE TO YOU ALL -Joy

Normality.

So I think I'm finally conforming. I remember when I wanted to look like this: with piercings.

but now...







I'm actually nervous about this. It feels a lot like taking off the training wheels for the first time. I feel really unsure and exposed.

I guess I'm scared that, without my jewelry, I'll just be like everyone else. There won't be anything distinguisable about me. I won't be unique anymore. Before I got them, I was just another mousy, brown-haired, glasses-wearing, shy girl that nobody really wanted to get to know. There was nothing interesting about me, and I hated myself. That's why I got them in the first place.

I don't know, I feel liberated though. I feel like I'm ready to grow up and leave immaturity behind. Maybe that's what this feeling is; immaturity. It's really immature of me to think that there's nothing unique about me besides what holes I put in my face. I don't know...

I'm hoping for the best. -Joy