This is Fox News at 6. You're missing the Simpsons.

So my watch revived. It tells time ON TIME now! wow, what a blessing, I don't have to buy a new watch! XD

so anyway, today I worked a lot. I went to all of my classes, and also did my tutoring like I was supposed to! yay!

I have homework! Music lit is ok, but theory...UGH

How is it that my music classes are making me hate music? It's gotten to the point where I feel sick just by thinking of stupid intervals and crap! I'm leagues behind, I know it...I have no idea how to do any of the work.

But anyway, doing Music lit homework makes me feel...accomplished! It's like history, which is really easy for me, but then again there's a lot of theory in it, like cadences (Which I have no idea concerning) or things like that. I don't know about those things at all, am I really supposed to be a music major?

Ah well, in other news, I got batteries for my camera. Don't get excited, I still have no way to get my pictures from my card to my computer...bah.

Well, I love you all, talk to you soon! <3 Joy

It finally died!

This morning at approximately 8:30AM, my plastic children's watch finally died.

I was expecting it, considering it was about 4 minutes slow, even if I set it properly, but yea, it died.

It's not just the batteries, either, considering it stopped working because I got it wet...whoops!

I'm surprised it survived this long, however, now I have to get a new children's watch...

Photograph

It's one month with Daniel today. I'm really happy!

I'm a little sad because I'm still sick, and also I dont know if I will be able to spend a lot of time with him today because I have church stuff/CI reunion later today.

Ah well, I'll work something out.

Everyone have a great day, enjoy the weather! <3>

today i saw a woman in the mirror.

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I know, the quality isn't very nice, but I took these with my camera phone, and also took some with my regular camera, but I need an upload mechanism/point!! urgh!
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So yea, it was a really nice day today.

Sometimes I wonder if my blog portrays me correctly. Sometimes I read blogs and they sound nothing like the real person writing them...why is this?

I try to write here the way I talk and think, but sometimes I like to fabricate and imagine, teehee.

Have a lovely day, everyone! love-Joy

The worst cold of my life!

and i have an important paper to organize and turn in today. Everything's written, i just have to put it all in a folder, get dressed, and drop it off.

blegh. my face and ears are clogged...i'm going to the nurse too today.

but anyway, i need to print out all my sources...ALL of them..Boo, and my printer is running out of ink so i might have to go to the library today before 330...blah

i've been incapacitated. and i hate it. <3 Joy

Lent Mass, Ash Wednesday 2007

I feel so good!

A Deep Sea Diver That's Swimming With a Raincoat [Ash Wednesday]

ARE YOU READY TO GET PUMPED!? For the Lent experience?

haha, I am. It's going to be difficult, but for Lent I've decided to give up chocolate. I've already given up pop and quit chewing my nails, so it was really hard to pick something that would give me a little feeling of sacrifice. Of course, like Amanda said yesterday, it really is only a millifraction of the sacrifice our Lord experienced.

In other words, I'm ready for Lent. I'm excited.

I also have a speech to write for tomorrow, and I'm a little worried. I don't know how I'm supposed to stretch my topic for six minutes, and I don't get really nervous but it looks like I am because I trip on my words sometimes....in actual conversation as well, so that sucks.

BUT ANYWAYYESSS, I'm going to get ready for class! Love you! -Joy

The Average American I am

So today was Comp 2 class, I have my paper about half way done. It's moving along better than I thought it would!

I had piano lessons, and Ms. Sheilds forgot to give me a practice report again. This makes me stress a little, but its not hard to make one and fill it out myself, so things will be fine. I now have 2 Bach solos to practice, as well as a 'polka' duet with mi primo, Brandon.

I have my make up music lit test today in about a half an hour. I'll be glad when it's over.

Today is an amazing day! the weather is so beautiful, i actually went out without a coat and was comfortable! God, thank you for this day! I really feel motivated now!

I realized something important today, as well.
...I can't do work outside of an office-like space...
My essay will be completed in the library, no doubt about it. It doesn't bother me, but really REALLY, i should have realized this in the beginning of this semester. This also explains what I did in high school: worked on papers completely at school, and never EVER took anything home.
Now I know to spend more time in the SSS, as well as get my lazy butt out of my chair and go there in the first place, otherwise I won't get anything done....

However, I digress...
Today is a beautiful day, but people just have been feeling bad, it seems. Poor Miranda had a death in her hometown, it was one of her good friends...God see that he reaches peace...

Anyway, I have to get studying. I have my inspiration back. Let's be praying today, ok? (I'm going to make time for my rosary.)
Love to you all! -Joy

Inward Scream 2007

So I went to see Dir en grey in concert in Houston!
It was the best concert experience of my life. I preordered their new album as well.

Ask me for details, because I've been talking about it all day and I don't really feel like typing it.
lala.

So anyway, i just had a cup of mint tea, my favourite! My shoulders feel like I've been to the gym!~

I feel so much better than depicted in my last entry. I haven't really regained all of my motivation, but I'm getting there and praying on it. I love you! -Joy

Why me? I'll tell you why!

Hey guys. I hate school.

Wow, I got to the point quick.

I realize that I've been lacking motivation lately. I hate not having motivation, I really do, but I don't know. I just absolutely loathe going to my classes lately.

Maybe it's the addition of work. Tutoring at the JLC is all well and good, but really, it makes me feel like there's JUST TOO MUCH going on.

I also have been thinking a lot of Music lately. Remember that one person I was talking about? How they intimidate me and make me feel like an idiot? Well, I don't know, I keep thinking, "I'll never be as good as this person. I'll never ever be as talented or desired. I don't even practice. What's wrong with me!?"

I feel like drawing more and more lately? Do I want to change my major? No, I really don't. I'll change my minor instead. Communications to Art sounds a hell of a lot better and more do-able.

I don't know, I just feel the pressure. Comp 2 is KILLING ME. Mass comm isn't killing me, but there's so much work to do and ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY NO COOPERATION! There's no possible way I can get this project done over a weekend with minimal help from a quarter of my group. I can't do this all by myself, and I'm not just talking about Mass Comm, i'm talking about everything!

I have a test in Music lit on Monday, after I barely passed the first one.
I have a comp paper I'm really really struggling to put together, in which I'm a little behind.
I have a six minute speech to write for thursday and I'm scared as hell.
I have my mass comm presentation on monday.
I have tutor crap. Enough said.
I have tax crap i had to do last week for payday, in which i'm behind.
I have choir tour coming up, that i have to plan for. (GAG)
I feel like my relationship with my roommate isn't as good as I'd like it to be...wah.
Music Theory. Enough said.
I have to talk to Dr. Gorman about changing my minor.
I have to get my ass over to the radio station on thursday 4pm for training FINALLY.

Man, why can't I be an art major and fingerpaint all day!? why can't I grow up and be an art teacher or something gay like that?
I want to embroider, but I can't because I have SO MUCH BLEEPING WORK TO DO!!!!!! ARG!

Hey, Jess...

Do you remember the Talking Room? And the skeleton?

Something Remembered.

I remember walking down a cold gravel path.

The river smelled so nice. It was either early spring or late autumn, and Mom had made me wear a sweater.
I chose my favourite one, a green hooded sweater that was made to make the wearer appear to be a cartoon dinosaur, complete with yellow spikes leading down from the hood to a short fabric tail. The singular, long pocket in the front was a convenient place to put hotwheels cars and snacks.

I walked down the path to the little stone house where Grandma Janda lived on our property. The river smell is in my mind as I write this.

I reached the wooden door and knocked. She would always give us these little boxes of raisons that I had with me all the time. Jessica would throw them into the yard; she didn't like them as I did.

I don't think I've had raisons since Grandma passed away. This isn't really on purpose, I just haven't had a reason to consume them.

It's just a memory. The weather today made me think of it.

You're not gonna believe this...

Just my luck, right? I woke up and my throat hurt so bad, and i have a horrible headache.

I feel hot, I'm going back to bed.

Henri

Henri, Cupid's assistant. I didn't know this little guy existed.
He's a short statured little guy with a large nose and a thin, curled mustache. His hair is parted on one side, and when I look at him, I'm reminded of a little Italian man. He carries a bow and quiver full of arrows, and from his hand dangles a heart on a string.
He's smiling with his eyes closed.
So am I.

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone. I pray this day brings you as much happiness as I've experienced these past few weeks. I love you! - Joy

Decongestant

This is POST 100!! WOO!

Anyway, the weather's been really cruddy. I went to the nurse today and talked to her about a doctor and a dentist and she made some really good reccomendations.

She also gave me some medicine for my throat. It feels really bad now, hopefully it will improve. I'm supposed to take another decongestant later tonight.
blah.

now I'm going to walk to Fred's with Miranda. I have to call Grandma today.

-<3 Joy

Comp 2 Trouble...The Unfinished Symphony...

Franz Schubert's Unfinished Symphony has to be one of my favourite songs. It puts me at peace. Aaaaah~
I just thought I'd mention that, considering I just finished looking over Mass Comm chapter 5 (in depth...blah) and I feel a little jumpy. There's been so much work to do, and not a lot of time to do it.

Also I've been suffering from lack of...eh, what's the word...'academic inspiration.' Yea... I really wanted to talk to Dr. Gorman about it, but she's been busy lately as well, and I don't want to disturb her.

What's really bothering me lately is my Comp 2 class. I really like the subject of my paper, but I'm having a hard time organizing and getting motivated to do little assignments. (Such as putting together a simple bibliography or even a detailed outline...) I do these things anyway, but somehow I just can't bring myself to turn them in...I feel like a bit of a failure in that class right now, and I feel bad because I have a high respect for my professor, but you know...I just explained it...

Otherwise, my other classes are going rather well. My theory is going at a relatively steady pace, and I felt that I did well on my first Intro to Mass Comm test. (I love to write out essay questions.)Although my Music Literature test wasn't very impressive, I feel I'm absorbing more of the Renaissance music...Medieval killed me! X_x

Also I feel intimidated by one or two people in particular in my music courses...I'm kind of a baby, I know, but really...Every time they open their mouth I feel so stupid...wah.

But anyway, I really have to email Mom soon, and call Grandma. This wednesday I have the radio training that wasn't taken care of last week..BOO! Pray for me, it's going to be busy for a while!

Love, Joy.

Why I Love Children.

I pray I have one or two children that are this cute!

Amber Beads

So, today has been an ok day. I woke up later than I wanted, but that's alright. I feel like I've slept a bit of the day away...boo.

So I got up, prayed, prayed, got dressed, talked to friends, and I realized, "Wow, I feel so good."

Hey guys. Guess what. Life is good. -Joy

Upsetting

Well, I'm upset. Someone has been saying lies. SOMEONE! Grrrr, and it's really hurting my relationship.

It's one thing to like me, sure, that's cool, but don't tell other people that I've broken up with them, and don't tell me that they've broken up with me!!

Stupid drama...stupid boy.

Hrm.

EVERYTHING is going on now. It's confusing and tiring and BLAAA I feel like my brain has exploded.

Ar and I still have so much to do. I'm exhausted.

Nocturne

Today was pretty eventful, yet still tiring...I felt so exhausted earlier today, but going outside in the warm sun made me feel so much better. I went for a little shopping with Daniel and Miranda, which was great fun. We spent almost the whole day together, and I felt good.

I'm so grateful for good loving friends and my wonderful boyfriend...aaaaah i feel a happy sigh coming on...

Anyway, I realized today that when I really get into classical music, I conduct it. Openly. With my hand.

I'm such a nerd... :P

Haaaaauuuuh (it's a yawn)

Well, lately I've been really sleepy. Just a lot of work to think about/do/turn in.
It's a little stressful!

I finally secured a time slot on KUOZ! I'm so excited, I start training tomorrow at 4pm, and my show will air at 5pm on Thursday nights (around dinner time, so people can hear it in the cafeteria! they said this was a really smart idea, and I'm glad i thought of it...*beam*)

well, other than that, today is assessment day, and also there is a JLC tutor training thing today as well as Thursday. It's going to be a busy week...

OMG

Raven and Eddie KISSED!!! OMG!

Eddie and Raven, sitting in a tree! K-i-s-s-i-n-g

H-i-j-k-l-m-n-o-p!

Well, anyway, today was good. I talked a lot to my family today! I'm actually in the process of writing letters to my fam + one of my friends who called me. (Love you, Kai kai!)

Right now i'm looking for a new little plush cell phone strap, as well as filling out an order for some stationery. I'm happy. ^-^

triangle

lately I'm obsessed with boy band style pop music...I don't know why, it just is good to walk to, you know?

So today I helped Nana move into maclean hall, which was an experience. I just met her today, so I helped her move. her boyfriend gave me a really nice gift...it was nice!

I hope to see more of them soon!